Christmas is such a wonderful day to share with others. I always feel somewhat different on Christmas. I think most people do. It's in the air.

As Christmas Eve and Christmas Day get closer and closer, I can't help it think of all the people involved with this world's worst dirt: armed-conflicts, misery, diseases, injustice, etc. So many people are going to spend a sad, lonely, poor Christmas. It's very sad. And of course it's not sad only because it's Christmas, it's always sad. But, during this time, it's more tragic somehow.

The New Year is almost here as well. A new year is usually taken as the perfect opportunity for a "fresh start". A new beginning. Most people hope for changes. Changes for themselves, changes for people around them, changes for the country they live in, changes for the whole world.

I hope for soooooo much. So many changes. I don't know if I should be glad or scared of whatever this new year is going to bring. Probably both. Either way, I can't help it wish for a more peaceful year. Peace in my country, peace in Iraq, peace in Colombia, peace in Sri Lanka, peace in Afghanistan, peace in Congo, peace in Sudan, peace in China, peace in Cuba, peace in Haiti, peace in Honduras, peace in Somalia, ... etc., peace in my spirit, peace for everyone dealing with some kind of struggle. P E A C E . . .

Self-control. I need. Desperately.

I'm so tired of being sad. I remember I always hated to see people sad. I always thought it was, even in a small part, their own fault. I mean, you allow yourself to be sad. You take yourself to misery. You do it. Yourself.

So... I guess I'm done with step no. 1: I've accepted my problem, but I'm having trouble getting to step no. 2: actually doing something about it.

So many things have changed in my life recently. I'm having trouble dealing with that. And I'm definitely not helping myself (me, myself and Rocío, right? haha).

I always saw myself as an optimist. That's why I don't understand how I ever got to this point, but I think I've had enough. No, actually, I know I've had enough. I really need to get myself together now.

I always thought of everyday as an opportunity to do something great. I've let so many opportunities go because the tears in my eyes wouldn't let me see. That has got to stop.

A wise man once told me: "patience" (yes, that's all). He really knew what he was talking about.